Neat experiment

So, I had this thought today. You all, dear loyal readers, know how much I loathe the brain dead times, the steps back that render me disoriented, indecisive, irritable, and feeling like a victim?. How they scare me and I feel worthless and ashamed etc? Well, Recently, this weekend, when one descended, I tried positively regarding myself during the episode, and in gneral just focusing on what I was doing right. And today? Well, I did the unthinkable. I intentionally let a spell come over me, by not eating protein within a three hour window, and then I just dug it. I called people, and worked and just focused on how much I can get done and that the stuff I cant is really not a big deal. Nowhere near the big deal to others as to me.

It was eye opening. The severity was less and it turns out I can contribute and feel good while they are on. Its a baby step, but I thought I would at least report the courage, if not the outcome, of the experiment.

hey now.