Catch me when I fall

Thank you all. Everyone whose support poured out. Even those who don't even know I keep a blog and that I am thanking you.

R, J, A, A, F, X, BB, M, Dr. W, J. You all helped me in your way. Every call, text, offer, email, futon and herbal whatever-the-fuck I have on my second chakra, was a brick of support on which I stood. Or laid. (or is it lied?).

This was the day/night that instead of fighting it, instead of demanding I do it myself, I just let go and trusted to the help of others and that I would be ok. Profound change for which I was profoundly ready. How much time have I wasted trying to do it on my own? This...all of it?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbQl14tJIWM









Today I am shaken, but shaky/better. No, wait, something is different. I accepted this, and therefore I guess me, and somehow it makes it all different.


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update. My therapist, who gave me her home phone and told me to call whenever I might need, just called to check in and see how I made it through. How fucking awesome is that? Thanks J.
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