Wow

I realized that this- that is my dive into self psycho analysis- is so much bigger than this illness. Its necessary and over due. There are knots that are holding me back. However, I have been using this illness as an excuse not to get to the bottom of it. I have hid behind it when things got uncomfrtable. When I asked uncomforatble questions and when others did of me.

I am taking my self discovery off line, off this blog, because it does not belong here. No worries, I still use the words, its just in a private journal.

I will keep on with illness related things, because they are real and important, they are just not the cause of my misery. People suffer every day. That is what it is, but no excuse.