Fragile
I am particularly shaken today,
Yesterday I met with the PTC. For the blood draw I was instructed to forgoe my supplements for 24 hours. Within 24 hours, I was quite mentally ill again. My mind raced so that I was confused and disoriented all day. Driving was like a strobe light, with snapshots of reality filtering in, and pain and bewilderment predominant. The paranoia started to creep back in, and it was hard to trust or talk with people. My metabolism shut down, and my hands were cold. The monologue in my head got deafening and abusive.
So, I am 24 hours from almost unable to care for myself. Only these pills are protecting me. And I dont know for how long or how well. I am shaken, badly, but living on.
Yesterday I met with the PTC. For the blood draw I was instructed to forgoe my supplements for 24 hours. Within 24 hours, I was quite mentally ill again. My mind raced so that I was confused and disoriented all day. Driving was like a strobe light, with snapshots of reality filtering in, and pain and bewilderment predominant. The paranoia started to creep back in, and it was hard to trust or talk with people. My metabolism shut down, and my hands were cold. The monologue in my head got deafening and abusive.
So, I am 24 hours from almost unable to care for myself. Only these pills are protecting me. And I dont know for how long or how well. I am shaken, badly, but living on.
posted by warnerk | 12:27 PM
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