Scared again
I am scared again. The one thing not resolving in my illness has been this brain flat tire that happens every day, and every 2 -3 hours if I dont eat a bit of protein. And I think its getting worse. I dont have health insurance- I am at a start up- and even if I did, I know its been tested and tested and no doctor finds anything. This has been for over a decade.
How does it feel? Terrible. You feel confused, disoriented, irritable, unable to think well or clearly, overly emotional, panicked, foggy, cannot remember names or people or other facts or datum that are normally right there.
The problem is these symptoms used to kick in 2 hours after waking and again every 3 hours if I dont eat a little protein (yes I epxeriemented with fruit, nuts, etc). If I wait more than 30 minutes after the symptoms start, I am done for the day. I have had blood work done while the symptoms were coming on that revelaed that my blood sugar is, in fact, stable the whole time. But lately, they have already started when I wake up. gulp. I dont know whats going on, because no one knows whats going on. The only theory that I have ever heard that makes sense is that the stress and fear and 10k calorie days while playing water polo in college for 5 years resulted in my brain becoming insulin insensitive, and now it takes a bolt of sugar in the evenings, to get my brain enough sugar for the next day. (thus the one big meal a day). If the meal is not cramming enough ove rthe blood brain barrier, then I am reeeeeeaaaaalllly fucked.
Yikes.
How does it feel? Terrible. You feel confused, disoriented, irritable, unable to think well or clearly, overly emotional, panicked, foggy, cannot remember names or people or other facts or datum that are normally right there.
The problem is these symptoms used to kick in 2 hours after waking and again every 3 hours if I dont eat a little protein (yes I epxeriemented with fruit, nuts, etc). If I wait more than 30 minutes after the symptoms start, I am done for the day. I have had blood work done while the symptoms were coming on that revelaed that my blood sugar is, in fact, stable the whole time. But lately, they have already started when I wake up. gulp. I dont know whats going on, because no one knows whats going on. The only theory that I have ever heard that makes sense is that the stress and fear and 10k calorie days while playing water polo in college for 5 years resulted in my brain becoming insulin insensitive, and now it takes a bolt of sugar in the evenings, to get my brain enough sugar for the next day. (thus the one big meal a day). If the meal is not cramming enough ove rthe blood brain barrier, then I am reeeeeeaaaaalllly fucked.
Yikes.
posted by warnerk | 11:59 AM
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