We have a problem

ok. Now, the clarity has not faded. The symptoms, for the most part, are gone. But, small problem- since I started the Gaba, I tend to have total insomnia about once every three nights. Total. Like right now. Not a wink. I am tired, and I lie in bed, but the mind spins round and round and round. Now during the Bar prep, this was to be expected, but I also had weeks where I felt tired before bed. I have not felt sleepy before bed since I was a child, except for the rare night, here and there. But for about 2 weeks straight, I felt exhausted before bed and felll straight to sleep.

So, I dont know what is going on. This sucks. I have never been a strong sleeper. This is a pain in the ass. Several girlfriends have taken this as an affront to them. Its not. Its not a question of being comfortable. its just, I get super wired. Then I can hear her eyelashes blinking, my heart on the pillow, the clock ticking in another room. And no sleep. Thoughts are disjointed and race and jump, and with each a start.

Still, total insomnia was rare. I suspect this is a phase. Just as the first week on Gaba brought migraines, which dissapeared, this too is likley a phase of some sort. I hope. Perhaps since I have so much more focus and energy now, it doesnt know where to go, and keeps me up. I used to be so exhausted all the time. So painfuly weary. Not the tired that sleep would alliviate. Now, That is gone. So, insomnia it is. I did not sleep tuesday night either.

So, lovely sunrise. I guess I will be seeing more of these.