Its not over...

Who says you want take steps backwards. I should have seen this one coming. In fact, I did see this one coming. I pulled an all nighter monday night. And that has always been sustainable, but made the symtoms come back stronger when I do get some sleep. Which happened last night.

So today I am having a bit of a relapse, if you will. I am quite pleased by how mild it all is, to tell the truth, but of course, there is the disspoitnment that I can take steps back.

My face is numb again. Not the whole thing. Just the left hand side. The muscle tension is much increased- a tightness in teh shoulders and the back. I have that underlying exhuastion. More than tired. Just feels like there is shot in every cell in my body. And my mind too. It makes my mind feel tired and weighty.

This is the first day in a month or two where I can pick out the symptoms again. Where they can be distinguished from the normal ups and downs of the day. Not really anything to worry about, but today is a reminder of what is under all this.

M.