And then there were 16...

Folate,

Down from 18 a day of 800 mcg, to 16. I dropped to 17 for 5 days, then 16. 8 in the morning 8 in the evening. I am not scared anymore as I was when I first considered reducing the dosage of the supplement I identify as most responsible for my recovery. At first, the very thought was terrifying. It seemed reckless. It is a water soluable vitamin, so why bother? Its cheap-ish. It is not supposed to have side effect

Still, I believe in as little assistance as possible. I believe that the body is a complex organism balancing chaoses, and it is best to interfere with that with linear thinking as little as possible.

For so many years, everything I did was wrong. My body just did not do what the medical text books said it should do. Now, its receptive. Maybe we have made our peace with each other. Maybe I have stopped worrying about how I "should" be, and I am just being. I think this peace is letting the alarm bells quiet a little and with that, the endless panic of my existence is begining to wane.

There is a line from a song..."I just woke up, its already getting late." But not too late. And its nice to wake up, no matter what we slept through.